#metoo

   #metoo. There, I said it on social media. Nothing about my life changed, it still sucks by the way. I don’t know why, but I thought things will change for me. People will give me a bit more respect, my voice will be heard, the men who did this to us will be punished, and guys on the street won’t look at me the way they do. Guess what? Not a damn thing changed in my life. People still think I’m stupid because I’m a woman, nobody considers my opinion, those guys who did this to us still live their life like it was all nothing, and the guys on street still look at me the way they always had.
   The only thing that’s going to change in my life is- people will comment on my post that how brave I am for sharing this, they will sympathize with me and after a day or two they’ll forget about it. But I won’t. This forever is going to be a part of me, that’s how every girl in this world comes of age.
   I wrote a whole blog post about my experience like every other woman has been on social media and I deleted it. I, truly, understand how hard it is to open up about our worst experiences of our lives on social media, but, on the other hand, what we are doing here is making sexual assault such a norm that people, everywhere, have started taking it very lightly. And I believe, that’s the worst part of it all.
   So, ladies and men, just don’t say #metoo. Probably, the next time you see a fellow human being, assaulted or in pain, listen, try to help, and do not blame them. And I think that’s what the campaign should be about- #metoo helped a person who was assaulted. Maybe this campaign will make a difference it is intended to.
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I’m bad at love.

 

   Let me tell you one thing about myself- I am smart, like really-really smart. I can hold up a good, intellectual conversation, I can teach you or your kids mathematics, science, or programming. I read the news, I’m up-to-date with pop culture gossips and entertainment, I keep track of tech industry. I’m like a pro when it comes to Research and Development.
   But.. when it comes to love, I’m the dumbest dumb person you’ve ever met. Stupidest people won’t make the choices that I make, and then after few months, I’m in such a deep shit that I have no idea how can I get hold of my life back. It’s like I know I hate roller coasters, but they seem so fascinating and other people look so happy in it from far away, that I have to try them thinking, this time I won’t mess up. And, I know very well it’s only gonna hurt me and scar me for life. But, I’ll still go and ride them anyway (no pun intended).
    If that example was too much for you let me elaborate on another one:
Friend: Hey, there’s this guy in my office, he is really nice and sweet, has a job and seems like a mature, responsible person. Would you like to go out with him?
Me: What!? What I’m supposed to do with that guy? He seems perfect! What I’m supposed to fix in him? I can’t date a guy unless he is a rude, immature narcissist, compulsive liar. C’mon girl you know my type!
   They say I deserve better, but the truth is I don’t know what exactly is better. This is the only love I’ve ever known. So, I keep going back to the same kind of love I think I know, and I think I deserve.
   I am doomed, people! I am doomed, for life. *Sigh*
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Mini Playlist: Best of Covers

 

My favorite kind of music genre is Indie Rock, Alternative, Electronic and Dream Pop. So that’s the old 80’s music for you, even though I was born in 90’s. I guess the reason I like it is that it makes me feel nostalgic and reminds me of my childhood in some way.

I keep discovering new bands and artists that are not mainstream but are unbelievably underrated. So, I thought why not share them with everybody, in case anybody likes it.

It’s very rare that a cover song is better than the actually released one,  but it does happen sometimes and here’s the list of covers that I love:

5. WE CANT STOP by BASTILLE

This is like a double-triple-quadruple mashup.

4. CHOCOLATE by DWNTWN

This cover is so dreamy, that it had me shook. LOL.

3. BAD BLOOD by RYAN ADAMS

This acoustic cover by Ryan Adams is so sad, but oh.. so good!

2. GET LUCKY by DAUGHTER

Everybody has heard of Get Lucky by Daft Punk but have you heard of this dark version by Daughter?

1. WHAT MAKES YOU BEAUTIFUL by THE 1975

Everything that The 1975 touches become heavenly! This cover wins! Everybody go home.

What are your favorite covers?

 

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FAQ’s about Photography

 

  1. When did you get into Photography?
    • I started photography when I bought myself a smartphone in 2013. I started with mobile photography using Nexus 4.
  2. Which gear do I use?
    • Canon 750d. And I only have the basic kit lens 18-55mm. Now saving for 50mm, 70-200mm, and a macro lens. I can buy these lenses in a month with the amount of money I earn, but let’s go with the excuse that I’m saving.
  3. Am I a professional photographer?
    • No, I’m a professional UI Developer, in case you need a website. On the other hand, my photography is purely a hobby for me. I don’t do photoshoots or try to earn money from it.
  4. Which apps I use to edit my pictures?
    • Okay, I get this question a lot. The thing is I have a very clear vision of what the end product should look like and to get that result I’ll use any amount of software. Anyway, my most used are Snapseed, PicsArt, VSCO, Pixlr, etc. If I had to choose only one software that would be Snapseed, obviously.
  5. Why I only take pictures of flowers and mostly nature?
    • Because flowers don’t tell me that they look fat in the picture and sunsets don’t ask me to take their pictures more candidly. I am the master here, hence nature and still life photography.
  6. Aint self-portraits just like selfies?
    • Umm well, you got to feed your narcissism every now and then.
  7. How to get an aesthetic feed?
    • Create a theme for your pictures. All aesthetic feeds have one thing in common, that is, colors. Educate yourself on the topic of color theory. A game like ‘I love hue’ may help. Always, remember post only those pictures that have the best quality.
  8. Any piece of advice for a beginner?
    • Your camera, lens, software doesn’t mean a thing if you don’t know how to compose a picture. To master the composition start practicing every day with your mobile camera.
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My experience with friendship

 I was just lying in bed, imagining stuff which probably will never happen, when suddenly a random memory crossed my mind.
   I was in 10th standard and we had to attend a school camp. Ugh! So the biggest struggle at that time I had to deal with was to get a girl sitting next to me on the bus. It was a struggle because I didn’t have many friends back then as I was new in that school and also I couldn’t attend half of the year due to my leg surgery. And the few friends that I had, had decided to sit next to their best friends(I wasn’t anybody’s best friend). I asked every girl I knew to sit next to me, sadly, every one of them said no. Some girls really wanted to but they cared more about their “significant other bff’s”, they didn’t want to hurt them. Every damn girl on that bus was feeling sorry for me. I don’t need to tell you how angry, sad, humiliated, etc. I was.
   Fortunately, unlike my every other memory this has a happy ending. I was almost on the verge of crying when suddenly one of our teachers noticed me and called me to sit next to her and from there the trip just got better.
   I always had this type of friends, for them, their other friends came first and me at the end. No, I am not exaggerating or, nor do I am saying this to gain some sympathy. It’s something I have experienced, as they say, “actions speak louder than words”. It used to trouble me a lot before, especially when I was a lonely, little teenager. I won’t lie, occasionally, it still bothers me. But then life goes on, you meet other people, experience the good,  bad, and ugly; become more fierce and strong. You learn to be your own best friend and learn to not to rely on anyone but yourself. And you just know it, you’re gonna be alright, no matter who comes or goes.
   Oh! And let me add that I still remember each and every girl on that bus who rejected me. Guess what women? I’m so cool now that I have my own blog and maybe nobody reads it, anyway, I’m cool now, at least on the internet. Ha! Suck on that losers. Just kidding you know, or maybe not.

 

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Am I a photographer?

 

I feel kinda plagiarist whenever someone calls me a photographer or appreciates my photography skills.

   On the other hand, whenever someone calls me an artist or appreciates my art, I feel proud and happy, because I literally created that shit with my own hands! So it makes me feel like I’m entitled to that appreciation.

But it’s different with photography. It’s like I didn’t do anything. There is all kind of beauty around us and I just happen to notice it. Let’s say, I’m at the right place at the right time and I seize the moment. I, in no way, made those flowers and sunsets beautiful. They already were and are!

I only know how to use an equipment to capture pictures and several other software to bring that beauty out to the world.

So, I don’t know, this is that what being a photographer is like?

 

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Hello world

Hello, world!

So, I’m here because lots of people on Instagram loved the little excerpts that I wrote and also encouraged me to start a blog. I am really thankful for those people, because of them I am writing my first blog post.

My blog would mostly consist of my average everyday experiences, my basic love life and my mediocre expertise related to things that nobody cares about. I might also write about the mental health issue, because, let’s face it, everybody is crazy these days.

Let’s start with a brief introduction about me- for a living, I work as a Front-end Developer. As being a programmer with little or no life at all, I spend a great amount of time on the internet, consuming pop culture and memes, living on Tv series and movies, dreaming about traveling the world, just like every other IT guy/gal does. I also have several hobbies like reading, writing, painting, etc.

Now, if you think that I am just another nerdy, introverted, girl next door who likes reading, and writing and has opinions about every damn thing, then you are absolutely right. That’s exactly what I am.

If you’re still reading this and you do find me interesting.. you do? Well, then I might write one more blog post soon.

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