I have anxiety and I was suffering from depression for some amount of time. There, I said it. Yes, I am acknowledging this new information about me on the internet, where I am the coolest person. Its a part of who I am and I am done hiding it. Living with anxiety is already such… Continue reading People, anxiety and I
I was a lonely kid almost all my childhood. I know what it is like to be a loner. I kept feeling neglected, replaced, and lonely with every fight at home. Whenever something went wrong, I would run away somewhere or start looking at the wall and dream things I wish would happen to me… Continue reading I was a dreamer.
I was 10 years old when I came across a movie called Secret Garden, and I loved everything about it. A lonely girl, who still has hope, making new friends, getting hold of her life, and of course, discovering a secret garden full of roses. What's not to like! Eventually, as the days passed by,… Continue reading Secret Garden (Part I).
I finally got up after hitting snooze for the hundredth time. I had to check my phone like every other day to wake me up completely. And there it was, several likes, few comments, and a message from my ex on Instagram. My day was ruined already before it had even started. I thought about… Continue reading Should you be friends with your ex?
I cried and you looked the other side. I stuttered, tried to put my words in a line, but you didn't listen. I told you I'll rather die, and you said you didn't mind. I struggled with my broken heart, and all you wanted was to be forgiven. I asked you to stay for a… Continue reading Love as I know it – 2
Everyone on Instagram has been posting their #2017bestnine collages as the year is coming to an end. So I tried it for myself and the result was this- It made me go- "What the actual fuck!". I mean, the whole year I went places, drew so many drawings, shoot so many pictures, gone through thousands… Continue reading #2017bestnine
My father loved my smile so much that he named me Smita (the one who has a very lovely smile). All my childhood he kept clicking pictures every time I smiled. I guess that's where my interest in photography came from. As I grew up, my smile started fading bit by bit. There came a… Continue reading Smita
So, if you're close to me than you'll know how I've been struggling with interviews for a month or more. There's not a single person left in my acquaintance that I didn't approach for opportunities. It's like I'm stuck in an infinite loop: 1. The realization: That exact moment when you realize you need to… Continue reading What its like to search for a new job.
He kept rejecting me, He kept abandoning me, He kept belittling me like I was nothing, He kept being inconsiderate to my feelings, He kept putting everything else first, He kept thinking about himself, making everything about himself. And I kept loving him, I kept protecting him, I kept being there by his side no… Continue reading Love as I know it
My anxiety sets in when December arrives. My mind starts running wild, it's hardly a week for my birthday. Do I buy myself a new outfit? Should I plan my own birthday party? What if everybody cancels at the last minute and I am all alone. I don't want to deal with that sort of… Continue reading Why I hate my birthday