I’m bad at love.

 

   Let me tell you one thing about myself- I am smart, like really-really smart. I can hold up a good, intellectual conversation, I can teach you or your kids mathematics, science, or programming. I read the news, I’m up-to-date with pop culture gossips and entertainment, I keep track of tech industry. I’m like a pro when it comes to Research and Development.
   But.. when it comes to love, I’m the dumbest dumb person you’ve ever met. Stupidest people won’t make the choices that I make, and then after few months, I’m in such a deep shit that I have no idea how can I get hold of my life back. It’s like I know I hate roller coasters, but they seem so fascinating and other people look so happy in it from far away, that I have to try them thinking, this time I won’t mess up. And, I know very well it’s only gonna hurt me and scar me for life. But, I’ll still go and ride them anyway (no pun intended).
    If that example was too much for you let me elaborate on another one:
Friend: Hey, there’s this guy in my office, he is really nice and sweet, has a job and seems like a mature, responsible person. Would you like to go out with him?
Me: What!? What I’m supposed to do with that guy? He seems perfect! What I’m supposed to fix in him? I can’t date a guy unless he is a rude, immature narcissist, compulsive liar. C’mon girl you know my type!
   They say I deserve better, but the truth is I don’t know what exactly is better. This is the only love I’ve ever known. So, I keep going back to the same kind of love I think I know, and I think I deserve.
   I am doomed, people! I am doomed, for life. *Sigh*
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Smita

If you think that I am just another nerdy, introverted, girl next door who likes reading and painting and has opinions about every damn thing, then you are absolutely right! That's exactly what I am.

2 thoughts on “I’m bad at love.”

  1. The thing with Love is… the more we try to make sense of it, the more it doesn’t make sense. Love is not supposed to make sense, just go with the flow. Am not saying you will no be hurt in the process… you may be, but there’s only one way to love, and love truly – with all your Heart & Soul. Leave the brain aside for a while and let your heart dictate what needs to be done 🙂
    For all the advice I’ve given you… to let you know, I am single myself. Life has been my teacher, and a whole lot of relationships I’m surrounded with

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