I was just lying in bed, imagining stuff which probably will never happen, when suddenly a random memory crossed my mind.
I was in 10th standard and we had to attend a school camp. Ugh! So the biggest struggle at that time I had to deal with was to get a girl sitting next to me on the bus. It was a struggle because I didn’t have many friends back then as I was new in that school and also I couldn’t attend half of the year due to my leg surgery. And the few friends that I had, had decided to sit next to their best friends(I wasn’t anybody’s best friend). I asked every girl I knew to sit next to me, sadly, every one of them said no. Some girls really wanted to but they cared more about their “significant other bff’s”, they didn’t want to hurt them. Every damn girl on that bus was feeling sorry for me. I don’t need to tell you how angry, sad, humiliated, etc. I was.
Fortunately, unlike my every other memory this has a happy ending. I was almost on the verge of crying when suddenly one of our teachers noticed me and called me to sit next to her and from there the trip just got better.
I always had this type of friends, for them, their other friends came first and me at the end. No, I am not exaggerating or, nor do I am saying this to gain some sympathy. It’s something I have experienced, as they say, “actions speak louder than words”. It used to trouble me a lot before, especially when I was a lonely, little teenager. I won’t lie, occasionally, it still bothers me. But then life goes on, you meet other people, experience the good, bad, and ugly; become more fierce and strong. You learn to be your own best friend and learn to not to rely on anyone but yourself. And you just know it, you’re gonna be alright, no matter who comes or goes.
Oh! And let me add that I still remember each and every girl on that bus who rejected me. Guess what women? I’m so cool now that I have my own blog and maybe nobody reads it, anyway, I’m cool now, at least on the internet. Ha! Suck on that losers. Just kidding you know, or maybe not.